In the entry, Burnout vs Fed up, I roughly discussed the difference between the two mental weariness.
As a recap, the main discrepancy is that, when you get fed up, you can still continue with life. Burnout deprives you of that capability, and thus can be mentally paralyzing.
The worst thing that can happen is that you have not only get burnt out because of your working schedules, but also because you have been exerting yourself in a place very far from the comfort zone of your personality.
According once again to Susan Cain’s Quiet, “Introverts are capable of acting like extroverts for the sake of work they consider important, people they love or anything they value highly.” But this acting out just simply adds to the effects of work burnout, and when not recharged, can simply lead to a burnout combo.
When these happen, double nothingness come in, making you loathe that very thing that you love the most. You have become so tired of it that you don’t want to do it anymore. And when this thing you love the most has been the only thing that has been running your life until that moment, you will end up feeling lost too, not knowing where to go and what to do next.
When everything has come to this point, the next thing that will probably happen are these two words we call anxiety and depression.
So how does this “nothingness” feel like? In a blog entry entitled The Dark, which has been posted in another venue, dated October 9, 2015, I have detailed in a creative manner how floating in darkness felt like, what I consider as the first phase of depression.
It is literally not feeling anything at all. You cannot even feel your own body. You just feel that you are literally floating in nothingness, with nowhere to go, and having not a single clue on what to do next. Eventually, any outside factor will not have an effect on you anymore, and this is when the darkness takes hold of you, just like how burnout has already consumed you.
When this happens, your outside body may stop functioning the way it used to be in the outside world. One help you can get when this thing finally happens is when people around you, mostly friends and family, start noticing that you are not functioning normally anymore.
The people who will do something about your dysfunction can be called your support group. They may act on the issue themselves or they may ask someone who has experience on it. You are lucky if your have this so-called support group.
What if darkness has already succumbed you but you don’t even have a support group to find help for you?
The answer on this on my next blog entry.
“Help. Please. Save me.”